I just watched The Dark Knight. A delightful movie to watch! A philosophical journey...what is good and what is bad...! This is the only question I have been discovering from my childhood. A novel I read named Chitralekha fascinated me like anything. I gathered my courage to do things on my own and started discovering my own vision of good and bad things...!!! I learnt that nothing can be labelled as the good and the bad...! There is always a fair logic behind everything either good or bad. if one can prove one's deed it will be approved and will be fairly accepted.
I am quite poor in my logics so everything I do... does not fall in to the category of being good...some of them are not acceptable...! I try to make my people to look at the world as i do but they do not seem to be interested in that. I am still confused with the concept of disciplining myself according to the society's so called GOOD concepts...! They all suck in my honest opinion. Everything is hidden...I can see those dark sides...I can well understand it too...I can prove them too with a fairly strong reasons...still the Good and the bad things exist...!!! There are distinctiveness in the both. Why these both have so much contrasts...why cant they meet at some point...why people in my society have this demarcation? These things limit you and prohibit you to see a different side of a coin...may be there are third or forth sides...who knows and who will tell...? I have started this journey knowing that I want to see these non existing third or forth sides...unknowingly believing in their existence...! The good side I followed to a very distance did not make anything of me...so I sneaked in to the world of so called the bad concepts but it too did not fascinate me and I did not find it to be so strong to have these many followers...! I wonder the followers were so attracted to me that they started behaving like me...! I was not so strong in my opinion about the good side of life...so I did not convince them to trust me ...because i had seen so called good side of belief only...and i did not have any reason to follow those... at least not mine
There are people of different opinion in my life totally different from the one to the another. They are all good and good only. Some of them love me very much...a lot i should say. Love makes everything feel good and the idea of bad things go away from the mind for a while. But still there are bad sides...which exist even then!!!
I wonder when i will find the right demarcation of these two contrast in my life. I am wandering in the search of right direction...i am afraid is there anything like right exist or not...! I am clueless!!! I am looking for a person with whom i can find my answers...wish me luck!!! Now I am waiting dear!!! come soon!!! I need you!!!
