Your belief...

I wish you can trust me with your closed eyes...with your unspoken words...with your untouched hands! I wish i could be of that value for you.
I did speak to you much to day coz you were not eating ...i wanted you to eat properly. I dont know how must have you felt...i am like this...not cool...always caring...sometimes 

Used...

The life is all about getting used! Its all about using things and in return give your services. Its about needs...! If you are not getting used for any reason...you are not living for sure. I am happy that i am getting used! Yeah sometimes it is some people who make my usefulness nearly a dumb job. Such people are like my principal...who does not really know how to utilise a person of any calibre. Well this could be my own 

My nana

My nana died in the end of this January. I was unable to accept him dead. He was the first person in my life i believed...perhaps he was the last! I never could trust in such a way in anyone. I enjoyed his company the most amongst the children in my family. Every child is envious of me for this fortune. He loved me and cared me for the most time of his young life! Yeah...my nana was ever young to me...still now! I never ever could imagine him an old man cursing himself and god for every misery.
Now I know why he never cursed...because he was blessed with love.
I know the feeling of care and responsibility through him from my childhood. I am blessed with presence in my life. I am blessed with his love. I can never miss him...he is always around. He comes in my dreams and make me feel... not alone...!
I can love ... Because he loved me...I can care because he cared me!  Thank you nana!

A new chapter in my life

The year ended with all doubts and frustrations...with hopes and expectations. Now I am what I am...now I am where I left...at the begining of my journey. I am ready for trials...more troubles...more pains. I am ready!