Why isn't he the way I always hoped him to be...Why has he come when I was looking for him ...Why had he already grown up then...When I was still a kid...! Why did I try when no hope was remaining...and Why couldn't I speak once again about my feelings!
Monday, January 16, 2012
Sunday, January 8, 2012
The Target
Hi
What should be called as Target...it is us to decide or there is someone else who decides it for us...for me! I have never felt this frustration until now. I know I will somehow complete some goals set for me...but who will meet my own goal...the aim which I decided! I decide very few things ...very few goals...I do not know why am I often surrounded by so many. This causes trouble. I do not want to stop doing my job now...as I do not have anything to loose. Did I ever have anything to loose...? I ask myself and a smile comes on my face. What a great tragedy I have always been in...! I am scared of loosing...I am always! I wanted to get over it but I could not...! Yeah that was my target! How I forgot? I am too busy feeling scared that i forget to get over it...doing my job to achieve my target. Its frustrating all the time feeling so insecure about everything I see...I like...I have! When will I loose this fear...how I be the old lost Pragya! I am waiting to see myself again...! .I am stubborn. I can not leave things which I choose...I am going to do those mistakes again...in a smarter way.I bet I am going to spoil myself again....I just love spoiling things...God has made me this way...he has to help me doing this!!!
What should be called as Target...it is us to decide or there is someone else who decides it for us...for me! I have never felt this frustration until now. I know I will somehow complete some goals set for me...but who will meet my own goal...the aim which I decided! I decide very few things ...very few goals...I do not know why am I often surrounded by so many. This causes trouble. I do not want to stop doing my job now...as I do not have anything to loose. Did I ever have anything to loose...? I ask myself and a smile comes on my face. What a great tragedy I have always been in...! I am scared of loosing...I am always! I wanted to get over it but I could not...! Yeah that was my target! How I forgot? I am too busy feeling scared that i forget to get over it...doing my job to achieve my target. Its frustrating all the time feeling so insecure about everything I see...I like...I have! When will I loose this fear...how I be the old lost Pragya! I am waiting to see myself again...! .I am stubborn. I can not leave things which I choose...I am going to do those mistakes again...in a smarter way.I bet I am going to spoil myself again....I just love spoiling things...God has made me this way...he has to help me doing this!!!
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