Mere Papa

hi
life is a challenge. i know there are a lots of troubles existing in it still it has no limits to it. i did not want to see this much reality in my life. i still has to decide what to know and what to leave...a human is weak very weak for everything...he does not have powers to control  senses. to me the life seemed to me a gift i never realized that it can be this much real. i am coming across many facts which are making me feel that i am blessed to have my father around me. my father has always warned before i commit some mistake. i wonder why has he never stopped me doing something very wrong...then i get an answer ...he believed in me. i never wanted to break his belief...and i returned home when i was near to a disaster. i must thank to him...i have  real good principles to lay the foundation of my thoughts on.  i never actually struggeled very hard to come to a conclusion. i knew before i started...because of my father! these many experiences made me think why i want to know everything...why do not i trust people. why am i iterested in knowing more...and knowing about the things which do not lead me to a productive end. i start questioning then i get an answer this is all because i want to choose my own path to life. life is showing me my own face...and i am not likng it. i know that i a m going to stand very stronglly because my father exist in this world. i love you PAPA. i can not be some one else's daughter...i am yours!!! thanks for being my Father!!!

I Love...

I Love Him...I know it now
Did tell him still wonder how
A feeling which was inside me for years
That came out through words without the tears...
The expression in me is in abundance
Often makes me speachless with lots of confusions
But they never rolled on my cheeks
Strange I smiled and never found them weak
So I know they're sign of strength 'coz they are pure
Like a heart who knows the love for sure
Tears in eyes...now I know is the sign of life
A proof of a soul which still feels the right and resides...
In me and so...I smiled for a while
When I asked can I walk with him long miles
I love him...when I said
I knew I wanted this to fade
With the time with the distance with the silence
Never planned a word to speak this sense
I spoke those words...and those were emotional
Just to know if I am desired but never made proposal
To plan the life.. when I am still unborn
In the world of practice...where the people seem unknown
To the fact that emotions are unconditional
Though it do expect 'coz they are traditional
For a human who is destined to meet the aim
Of life through trust through belief through love through pain!
I loved the principles...the believes...the talks
Which were few but real and full of thoughts.
I knew the freedom resides in him so I walked
Away with the fear of loosing everything I ought
To have in my life never knew what it was
It hurt the most to know the fact was
the world he lives in was so compact.
For the people who are bounded with pact
Which he hates to the core...the path of timid.
Strange the word I hated the most was too Limits
 I can not imagine myself in it.
This thing  forced me to open up and mend
My life from then on ,,,found a new trend
 Like a river who never stops or fear
for friend, for enemy, nor for dear
So I learned through him as the God planned
and without him my own path is still...jammed!
I  hate when God teaches me through the people
I imagine like me then find them quite full...
with the past,,,which I never had
To grow up with as they did...then feel real and glad.
Here from an immature heart and soul
I confess my intention and my goal
That  the expectations... responsibilities and restrictions
Never intended to transfer these to you my dear 'coz I am in love with a fiction!!!