When will i be real?

When i be real...when will i feel real...when will i not dream...when will i be free...when will i be gone...when will i be me?

The end...

I am not gonna leave my hopes...my efforts..! I am goin to walk...living my dream!
What is an end ? The word troubles me a lot. I do not want to end anything...end my expectation with someone ...something! What is it? Can someone end my bonding with him...or can i just erase every thought i thought of him? Is it possible for a human to just forget things as it never happend?
I renegotiate with every old thing...mending those thoughts which were immature...kidish! I am growing up...my thinking is also getting matured...i am improving myself...every bit of me is getting changed! I love every change that is taking place...! This does not mean ending something so important. I can never end things as if they never occured...my life is full of shades...full of different colours...i love every colour of my life...even black the darkest among all. I enjoy having them in my life...and i am determined to have them in it to the end of my journey while knowing the very fact that the change is taking place with each breath...and my determination is going to be the only strength...noone else!