The Scary Time...

The time is a crucial thing in anyone's life. Time teaches, time manages, time heals, time takes care of everything! Time makes you forget things too. I am on a journey of my own life. It is scary most of the time. I tend to mess up when I lose something. I tend to act crazy when I know I am losing. My father was right when he said I do not know how to lose when I used to play tennis...I still do not know this...! And I know I can not change this now because it is too hard to do away with old bad habits. I am getting old and somehow I am scared of the very facts. I have not had victory in my life. Will I be a loser for ever? I know this can be true because I am not doing my full efforts. I am not having encouragement. Nobody wants me doing anything. I am going down. I do not know What will happen? I do not know!

What inspire me....

• A cup of tea...served to me when I am tired yet ready to work.
• A clean desk with arranged books, pens...with a comfortable chair. 
• A terrasse with flowers.
• My fit body and face minus double chin. 
• My fine clothes and nice beautiful work dresses. 
• A lot of leisure time for thinking. 
• Few books to read. 
• A driver at service.
• A maid at service who can offer tea when I am tired. 
• A good computer with good net connection. 
• A good house with a spacious kitchen. 
• A morning workout with no hurry. 
• A lot of money. 
• An evening tennis session. 
• Hell lot of friends who have blind faith in my capabilities. 
• No social pressure of being OLD and not getting married or starting a family. 
• Not having to go to the job daily. 
• A team which support me and is dedicated to enhance my performance as an examinee. 
• A youthful environment without suspicious eyes staring at me in confusion. 

Wow...this would be great if I have all of these.