hi

i want to say i am fine. things seem to be fine. something is missing and i know what it is...still i have to keep missing it! thinking about the things i am doing and the things i want to do are very far from each other.

i am at home...thinking nothing serious. now i wonder what is a serious thought and what is not. thinking process is a bliss or curse. i know a friend who always complains about his thinking habit...it disturbs him. if i say it does not disturb me i will be lying. the mind works but it is not independent. it does work in respect with our feelings, aspirations, our social atmosphere and our bond with family. there are certainly other factors which can be included such as our past experiences, our responses to those past events and of course our success rate in those events.

the mind does work without our permission. it does have that capacity to do so...and we are nothing in front of its capacity...i wonder its just a part of our body! how can it conclude so easily about our feelings...our future...our conduct...and makes us feel so ashamed...or rather...so proud!

i do not know what can be done...sorry dear i do not have any answer for this...only you know how to make your mind think what YOU want him to think. i am in the process to exclude myself from my mind... i wonder if the mind does not think who will think...if it does not give directions to our thought process who will do it. direction is necessary...i am gathering knowledge to be able to do so. i hope i am not alone...take care! bbye!