My study...my Love

Hi
My study and my love both are interconnected. I love him more and more as I study deep. I do not know why this connection exist. I feel calm inside me...a feeling of completeness...fullness comes within...and I need no more conversation with him. I do not know how would I able to tell him all about it...I am afraid it may never happen. I wish I am able to talk to him. Its a shame for me that even in this era of communication I am not able to tell him how much I love him...how much I care...how much I want to be with him. How much I want to make him smile...how much i want to make him feel proud of my emotion. Somewhere deep inside me there is a feeling that he does not understand my emotions. I feel that my emotions are very immature in front of his experiences. He knows life better than I do. So how could I ever be able to tell him about this stupid impossible unworldly feelings of mine. I can feel communication gap between me and him I do not know what to do. How to talk to him when he does not help me. I can't do this alone. I hope he helps!