i am Pragya...extremely lonely...bored and more precisely confused with the way my life is changing. i am living here in Balrampur just to earn 25ooo per month and to actually feel punished for what i had decided to do in year 2008. i am not fine...feeling gutted just because i am not doing what i think i can do. everyone calls it the Life...my parents call it my career... my friends call it a great job...i call it my hell!!! i seriously believe in it...! i am trying hard but my all trials are in vein...of no use! still i have no option...but to try!
sometimes i feel that why life is so complicated with me all the time i decide something to do...and i am answered that life is complicated to all who does something. complications are a part of life when you do things. it is the same with my parents...with my friends...my loved ones! i am living here in a place where i can have no help...no support...no inspiration! i do not know how will i survive here and keep my faith alive in almighty...who is still punishing me by denying to give me what i desire...the person of my dream...the career of my dream! i do not know how to beg for these two? my sister is with me. she is also being punished by him who is giving her lots of pain...the pain i can only imagine of. she is my inspiration and i am hers...! i wish for her the best of health she can ever have...and she does the same for me for my career!
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